I am in love with David Barnes. So I am dedicating this blog to how much I love his music. His music is so inspiring it's amazing. I sat one day at the coffee shop thinking about my life and God and didn't move for 2 hours. I just sat there letting his music and God's love pour down on me. I wouldn't consider him a Christian author but he has 2 Christian songs I think. Right now I am listening to "Until you" I think it's about someone else but I am interpreting it also from a Christian view. Anyways I am so in love with this guy's voice. I think God has given him an amazing talent and he is using it to reach out to other people. I love that he incorporated his faith.
Check out this song on youtube. He is still up and coming! It's so inspiring to watch him sing it reminds me we should all use our talents to better ourself and honor God!
Here is the youtube video : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uTqG-piJkbk
"love was kept from me like secret" and I am finally discovering completely his never ending love and compassion for me each and everyday!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
"Life's a ride...Enjoy it!"
Running.The act of running; traveling on foot at a fast pace; "he broke into a run"
Today I went for a run the first time in a long long time. It was challenging but, afterward I felt so great. During the run of course I questioned why I even like running and then what it is about it I like so I tried to put it into thoughts...
I like running because it's a time thats just mine. It's a time for me to push myself while challenging my body physically and mentally. I can reflect about my day or an issue but, also if I want to just forget about something I can turn my music up loud and just let my legs carry me. I can talk to God where no one can stop me and interrupt that time. It's just mine and his. Sometimes I think that my body is much physically stronger then mentally but I have been working at getting them in sync together. Then I went up this HUGE hill and I hate doing hills. I kept telling myself not to walk and just get up but, the hill never ended it felt so long. All of a sudden I felt like such a "sissy." I was thinking SERIOUSLY I can't run 40 min and not feel tired and people like Tom can do an ironman. I reminded myself to stop thinking negatively and just do the best I can at that moment. My mom always told me "Meyer's NEVER give up" and for some reason that saying has stuck with me my entire life. I just repeated that once to myself and then I went on my merry way.
Today I was running and thinking about God and just how amazing his love is for us. Running in Fiji is like EONS different from running at home. It's like creep feast 2009! Not many people here run for fun unless your a tourist. So I really stand out. Actually I feel like so many more people at home workout but, maybe here it's just in different ways. The women of the villages work so hard at every other task I don't see how they would even have time or energy to work out. So anyways I got gawked at and was beginning to feel a bit like a item you purchase. I tried staring at the ground to make it go away but, I still felt all the people staring guys and girls. It was so weird. Then I passed 3 bus fulls of middle schoolers. SWEET right? I could hear all them yelling at me even through my headphones and I wanted to scream "READ YOUR BIBLE JESUS LOVES YOU!!!" but I didn't I held it together despite my many almost breakdown moments at the Fijian gawker.
And to end the post. Today I saw on a car (which I must say I have never heard of many of the brands of cars here) Around the license plate it said "Life's a ride. Enjoy it" So that is exactly what I am doing.
Today I went for a run the first time in a long long time. It was challenging but, afterward I felt so great. During the run of course I questioned why I even like running and then what it is about it I like so I tried to put it into thoughts...
I like running because it's a time thats just mine. It's a time for me to push myself while challenging my body physically and mentally. I can reflect about my day or an issue but, also if I want to just forget about something I can turn my music up loud and just let my legs carry me. I can talk to God where no one can stop me and interrupt that time. It's just mine and his. Sometimes I think that my body is much physically stronger then mentally but I have been working at getting them in sync together. Then I went up this HUGE hill and I hate doing hills. I kept telling myself not to walk and just get up but, the hill never ended it felt so long. All of a sudden I felt like such a "sissy." I was thinking SERIOUSLY I can't run 40 min and not feel tired and people like Tom can do an ironman. I reminded myself to stop thinking negatively and just do the best I can at that moment. My mom always told me "Meyer's NEVER give up" and for some reason that saying has stuck with me my entire life. I just repeated that once to myself and then I went on my merry way.
Today I was running and thinking about God and just how amazing his love is for us. Running in Fiji is like EONS different from running at home. It's like creep feast 2009! Not many people here run for fun unless your a tourist. So I really stand out. Actually I feel like so many more people at home workout but, maybe here it's just in different ways. The women of the villages work so hard at every other task I don't see how they would even have time or energy to work out. So anyways I got gawked at and was beginning to feel a bit like a item you purchase. I tried staring at the ground to make it go away but, I still felt all the people staring guys and girls. It was so weird. Then I passed 3 bus fulls of middle schoolers. SWEET right? I could hear all them yelling at me even through my headphones and I wanted to scream "READ YOUR BIBLE JESUS LOVES YOU!!!" but I didn't I held it together despite my many almost breakdown moments at the Fijian gawker.
And to end the post. Today I saw on a car (which I must say I have never heard of many of the brands of cars here) Around the license plate it said "Life's a ride. Enjoy it" So that is exactly what I am doing.
"So what's next?"
"We should all be working constantly at using our talents to better the world. We are but a sea of one defined not as Pacific Islanders but by the space that surrounds us."
This quote came from a memorial ceremony I attended tonight at the USP campus where I attend school. I was not prepared for it but, was so compelled and moved by this experience tonight. I got an email saying the ceremony tonight should be attended in lieu of my cultural class that is held each Monday. I didn't know what to expect other then there would be performers. I was PLEASANTLY surprised to say the least. It was the most emotional and touching experience on campus so far. Makes my top five so far in Fiji. I got there to find out that the person who started the center of the arts here on campus passed away earlier this year and it was a dedication/memorial to him. I still didn't know what to expect but, sat back observing. Soon though my whole body was involved. I was listening so intently and I felt "in" the moment. I can't describe it to anyone except what this man was saying was so beautiful.
It started with an opening prayer (which I LOVE that they pray here for everything) the pastor talked about how the sea units us all no matter what land we are from and that each country is tied together with the Earth and global issues. He said we are "one" and no matter if our blood line is Pacific we are all the same. He went on to briefly discuss this amazing mans life and then stated that we are to use our gifts to reach out to others. I was so moved and hanging on this mans every word. I can't imagine how it was when Christ was alive himself and talked. God was really working through this man... I wish I could remember his every word it was so beautiful. Then about 4 girls and 3 boys entered the stage and danced a memorial dance. AND actually the song they were singing to was the man singing who had passed away. IT was so beautiful he was singing only as I can relate to you all as Hawaiian/Pacific islander music with the windpipes in the background. The people danced and cried at the same time. Their arms and legs moved in unison and flowed like a petal in the wind almost. It was amazing. I was so drawn to their emotions/ movements.
Next 6 people recited poets. I am not much of a poetry fan but, it was nice to hear what these people wrote.
After this was a man who had invented this instrument called the "bampipes" I think.. it is 7 things of bamboo and he hits it with a metal thing that looks like sole of a shoe. He played this music with other wooden instruments and a few more people and it was beautiful. They sold their CD and some of us bought it after. I am so excited it's so "islander."
More dancing followed by this dance group and I couldn't stop watching them. They did a warrior dance and then a final dance. We were all so intrigued I almost forgot where I was... OH YEAH FREAKING FIJI!!!!! I must mention also that during the instruments I whipped out my bible and read Corinthians in the middle of it. I felt so compelled and motivated. haha so me though huh? It was so relaxing.
The last song the musicians played was called "the first" because how he explained it the last of something is always the beginning of something new... it's the first. Lastly, his wife came up and I will leave you with a quote she said...
"Just because a drop from the body of water is gone doesn't mean the body can't keep living thriving, breathing, prospering." or something to this extent... I related this to Christianity as in just because Christ isn't here doesn't mean we can't stop seeking, spreading, and searching for the Lord.
I am in such a thoughtful... mood. I can't think of the right words to use at this time.
GOD is GOOD ALL THE TIME. ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD.
(something I learned at a Fijian Church)
SO I ask you today "What's next in your life?" What will you make of today?
This quote came from a memorial ceremony I attended tonight at the USP campus where I attend school. I was not prepared for it but, was so compelled and moved by this experience tonight. I got an email saying the ceremony tonight should be attended in lieu of my cultural class that is held each Monday. I didn't know what to expect other then there would be performers. I was PLEASANTLY surprised to say the least. It was the most emotional and touching experience on campus so far. Makes my top five so far in Fiji. I got there to find out that the person who started the center of the arts here on campus passed away earlier this year and it was a dedication/memorial to him. I still didn't know what to expect but, sat back observing. Soon though my whole body was involved. I was listening so intently and I felt "in" the moment. I can't describe it to anyone except what this man was saying was so beautiful.
It started with an opening prayer (which I LOVE that they pray here for everything) the pastor talked about how the sea units us all no matter what land we are from and that each country is tied together with the Earth and global issues. He said we are "one" and no matter if our blood line is Pacific we are all the same. He went on to briefly discuss this amazing mans life and then stated that we are to use our gifts to reach out to others. I was so moved and hanging on this mans every word. I can't imagine how it was when Christ was alive himself and talked. God was really working through this man... I wish I could remember his every word it was so beautiful. Then about 4 girls and 3 boys entered the stage and danced a memorial dance. AND actually the song they were singing to was the man singing who had passed away. IT was so beautiful he was singing only as I can relate to you all as Hawaiian/Pacific islander music with the windpipes in the background. The people danced and cried at the same time. Their arms and legs moved in unison and flowed like a petal in the wind almost. It was amazing. I was so drawn to their emotions/ movements.
Next 6 people recited poets. I am not much of a poetry fan but, it was nice to hear what these people wrote.
After this was a man who had invented this instrument called the "bampipes" I think.. it is 7 things of bamboo and he hits it with a metal thing that looks like sole of a shoe. He played this music with other wooden instruments and a few more people and it was beautiful. They sold their CD and some of us bought it after. I am so excited it's so "islander."
More dancing followed by this dance group and I couldn't stop watching them. They did a warrior dance and then a final dance. We were all so intrigued I almost forgot where I was... OH YEAH FREAKING FIJI!!!!! I must mention also that during the instruments I whipped out my bible and read Corinthians in the middle of it. I felt so compelled and motivated. haha so me though huh? It was so relaxing.
The last song the musicians played was called "the first" because how he explained it the last of something is always the beginning of something new... it's the first. Lastly, his wife came up and I will leave you with a quote she said...
"Just because a drop from the body of water is gone doesn't mean the body can't keep living thriving, breathing, prospering." or something to this extent... I related this to Christianity as in just because Christ isn't here doesn't mean we can't stop seeking, spreading, and searching for the Lord.
I am in such a thoughtful... mood. I can't think of the right words to use at this time.
GOD is GOOD ALL THE TIME. ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD.
(something I learned at a Fijian Church)
SO I ask you today "What's next in your life?" What will you make of today?
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Taveuni Spring Break 09'
One of the best spring breaks (or mid semester break as they call it here) that I could have EVER asked for. I wanted to blog about it before I forget all the AMAZING things I experienced and saw on this trip. First going to Savu Savu it was like my own little piece of paradise. We took about a 12 hour boat ride that turned into a 14 hour boat ride from a wharf in Suva to a place called SavuSavu. The boat was called the "Sofi" and it has a story of it's own. When you first board these massive boats you are excited to be at sea. A few hours later your curled up in the fetal position wishing you were safe of land. The boat which is the most rocky out of the 2 boats that leave the wharf in Suva was a journey I never want to experience again. I do not get motion sick or sea sick but this put me over the edge. I ordered dinner and couldn't even eat it because I couldn't walk to the food and then when I got to the table I literally could not sit up and eat it because my little body was getting thrown around! I tried walking back to my room and I hit a few walls and railings. A few other side notes to mention. The water on the boat is brown don't know why it was gross though. Along with no soap to wash your hands for almost a full day! YUMMY! The boat smelled of sanity wipes and animals because I must say that we had live pigs on the boats (no freezers in economy class to keep the meat fresh! SO they had to keep them alive ...also YUMMY!)
Upon arrival in SavuSavu we were wiped out from no sleep basically and checked out the quaint little port town on the ocean. The island was very green and volcanic only a small preview of Taveuni that was yet to come. Walked along the shore to find our lodging. A small cute little "house/bed breakfast" in the village. Of course the nice normal looking hotel was not ours but our cute little one would do. It was quaint and quiet...or so we thought! Until the rooster wouldn't stop crowing and the pack of dogs outside wouldn't quit fighting. I must say I had the most delicious meal in fiji so far consisting of lobster tail in butter with Kokonda which is raw fish in coconut milk with chopped cucumbers and tomato with a hint of cilantro. I actually loved it and I hate raw things especially sushi. Went to bed for a few hours and woke up at 4am to catch the rest of the gang headed to Taveuni.
Boarded another boat called the "sullivan" which we find out has stabilizers and is much safer. SWEET. I was a little sad that the rest of the group didn't have to experience the 30 foot waves but, then really I wasn't cause that was the worst! The Sullivan was a relaxing 6 more hour boat ride to Tavueni. MY FAVORITE place in Fiji so far. It's a volcanic island also known as the garden island of Fiji. it was fabulous to say the least. Words and pictures really don't describe the beauty of this place. The people were amazing and kind, beautiful as always. Such big hearts.
Upon boarding the ship we saw Kyle and his sister Katie, Katie's Fijian husband Timote' and their two mixed kids Zion who is 2 1/2 and Eden who is 1. We loved playing with the kids all weekend. Zion has the curliest black and blond highlighted hair you have ever seen he looks like a baby model and is all boy. Eden is a precious little girl who made all of us want to steal them and take them home. Kyle and Katie are our coordinators. It was so nice to see them! We actually found out that Kyle (who has a wife, baby and another on the way) is only 25!!! Only a couple years older then some of our group. I hope my mom isn't reading this haha he is like our age. We love having young coordinators they are so much fun.
Upon arrival I was so excited. I have never seen so many palm trees in my life! They have plantations of them. Taveuni used to be a Copra export. Which is the meat of the coconut they ship to mills and make coconut oil! Now things have changed but Taveuni is a wealthy place. We dressed in swimming suits and found a "mini bus" to drive us all. A mini bus is like basically a handicap van back home...little bigger then a normal van. It fit all 14 of us in. Don't ask me how cause I don't have a clue but I have a video of it. Our drivers name was Seio and he was a cool chap. PLayed loud music and had no idea what he was getting himself into with all of us. We pulled up to a grassy area and hiked for about 10 min. Got to what looked like Rapids and kyle told us we were sliding down them. I was like oh man this doesn't look safe!!! But the rocks are smooth and the rapids throw you down them!!! It's what they call a rock slide. So you have to cross the rapids first and then you climb up river more then you get in. The current is super strong crossing and you don't want to get thrown down the river cause some areas weren't safe!! But Katie a girl in our group was crossing and Seio wasn't ready to help her yet and she fell down the rapids. The current just swooped her up in it. We were all laughing till we looked at Kyle who was like "oh shit shit shit" (excuse the language) and she flew by Josh who was futher down and Josh tried to grab her but she was to slippery. We were worried she would hit her head on the raging rock rapids but she grabbed on a rock and Seio ran down to save her. The Fijians are fast and have Fijian feet that are rough and can run over rocks and water without hurting themselves. It's kinda like dog pads cause they never wear shoes. Shoes are rare here! Which I love! So anyways he rescued Katie and she was alright. What a champ walked over to us smiling and we were all so worried about her. So once we all crossed the raging rapids safe we went down the rocks that are meant to be slid down on. This was super fun and scary all at once. I magaged 0 bruises! GO ME!
So after the rock slid we went to our huts. Little Fijian huts on the coast is where we Stayed. I think called tavu tavu in a place called Matai. It was nice and we had the rest of the afternoon to relax, shower, and nap. For dinner we went to a pizza place and it was amazin!
The next day woke up early and made breakfast. We headed off to Bouma National Park for waterfalls, fun pictures, and a hike up a mountain. It was amazing and beautiful, adventoruous, exhilerating, all in one. Before we went snorkeling which I must admit was the most AMAZING snorkeling I have seen my entire life. Beautiful reef and fish. I loved it and soaked it all in. The water was a bit rough so I took a break and collected tons of shells on the beach. I played it safe and thought my mom would be proud of me for not drowning myself! We had lunch and I met a girl from the Peace Corp. She had started a school down in taveuni and I was envious of her living the dream. She also lived right next to a church...how perfect!
That night we had kava and lovo for dinner (meal cooked in ground) It was delicious. We sat around and talked and I was almost embarressed to go to bed at 8:30 fighting sleep! IT was nice company and I was loving my time here. We enjoyed Zion and Eden and I realized how much I adore kids and want some of my own but also was reminded how much of a handful children were and that I would enjoy my life and if God wants me to have my own children and husband someday he will provide. Seeing how Kyle talks about his wife and Katie&Timote together made me realize how amazing God is and how he brings people together for a reason. I really love how amazing God is to us! It's so great.
In the morning we woke up and headed to the International dateline. This was super cool. I was in 2 days at the same time!!! MY Right side was Friday and my left side of my body in Saturday. It was surreal... as everything here is. Took pictures of it too! We then went to an old church where the first Fijian missionaries had set up a cathedral. I think it was Catholic because of the holy water but they didn't have signs. Kyle told us that the first missionaries were killed and eaten because Fiji had Cannibalism. It was weird to think about. Poor guys just trying to share God's love. Fiji has a super knarly dark past of cannibalism and chiefs but, Thank the good lord he has been found in Fiji.
One thing I wanted to mention. something I love about being here. (There are lots but this is one cool thing) That many Fijians here have shirts with verses on them that they are allowed to wear in school. I remember in high school we weren't allowed to wear stuff like that. For the most part there are many strong Christians here but it's a different kind of faith. I am not sure how to explain it. It's like they are MUCH closer spiritually to God then any American I know. They really feel the lord's presence. But they also feel the devil here too. It's because like in the States we are attacked by the devil by materialism, money, jobs, TV, etc. and in Fiji they don't have any of that. So they devil kind of reaches them in different more moving real ways. I think of it like in Fiji they are closer to the equator then in the US and in a spiritual way they really feel both God and the devils presence. It's super hard to explain and I don't know how to get my point across but if you saw what I see here you would know exactly what I am trying to say. It's a really good thing they know God because our Lord is so good and with him the devil can't reach us if you have accepted God into your life. I continue to pray that Fiji continues to feel the lord's presence.
SO anyways after the cathedral we boarded the boat once again. I was so sad to leave but, I hope to go back some day soon. I loved that place.
The ride back was much smoother on the Sullivan in case you were wondering :)
So now I am back in Suva and I have so much to do but I can't think right now. My mind is a million other places then my math homework which makes me realize how much I still hate math. I feel really disconnected from my home life of reality but I know soon I will be wishing I was here again. Fiji is like food for the soul, mind, and body. It's seriously healing. If I ever get sick with Cancer and treatment isn't working I want to die here. It's SO peaceful. Your soul feels free and alive. It's like Fiji is healing medicine. You don't think about problems in your head or in the world it's just you exist in God's paradise. I can't even begin to think what heaven will be like! I exist here and all I have to worry about is myself and living. I wish my parents could come here. I think they would love it. Someday I will pay for their plane tickets. Although my dad would hate the heat. I would live here if it wasn't so far away. Maybe though I will have to see where God takes me. I really love life and I love God I love myself and I know what I want and where I am going. It's like looking into a crystal ball and not caring what the future holds. I feel like for the first time I trust God COMPLETELY and fully and I love it. I don't have to or need to worry about who what when where or how. I will just live and love and Fiji brings that out in me. I am changing so much and God is using Fiji to mold me into a better person for myself and for others.
It's food for the soul and I am loving every minute of it.
Upon arrival in SavuSavu we were wiped out from no sleep basically and checked out the quaint little port town on the ocean. The island was very green and volcanic only a small preview of Taveuni that was yet to come. Walked along the shore to find our lodging. A small cute little "house/bed breakfast" in the village. Of course the nice normal looking hotel was not ours but our cute little one would do. It was quaint and quiet...or so we thought! Until the rooster wouldn't stop crowing and the pack of dogs outside wouldn't quit fighting. I must say I had the most delicious meal in fiji so far consisting of lobster tail in butter with Kokonda which is raw fish in coconut milk with chopped cucumbers and tomato with a hint of cilantro. I actually loved it and I hate raw things especially sushi. Went to bed for a few hours and woke up at 4am to catch the rest of the gang headed to Taveuni.
Boarded another boat called the "sullivan" which we find out has stabilizers and is much safer. SWEET. I was a little sad that the rest of the group didn't have to experience the 30 foot waves but, then really I wasn't cause that was the worst! The Sullivan was a relaxing 6 more hour boat ride to Tavueni. MY FAVORITE place in Fiji so far. It's a volcanic island also known as the garden island of Fiji. it was fabulous to say the least. Words and pictures really don't describe the beauty of this place. The people were amazing and kind, beautiful as always. Such big hearts.
Upon boarding the ship we saw Kyle and his sister Katie, Katie's Fijian husband Timote' and their two mixed kids Zion who is 2 1/2 and Eden who is 1. We loved playing with the kids all weekend. Zion has the curliest black and blond highlighted hair you have ever seen he looks like a baby model and is all boy. Eden is a precious little girl who made all of us want to steal them and take them home. Kyle and Katie are our coordinators. It was so nice to see them! We actually found out that Kyle (who has a wife, baby and another on the way) is only 25!!! Only a couple years older then some of our group. I hope my mom isn't reading this haha he is like our age. We love having young coordinators they are so much fun.
Upon arrival I was so excited. I have never seen so many palm trees in my life! They have plantations of them. Taveuni used to be a Copra export. Which is the meat of the coconut they ship to mills and make coconut oil! Now things have changed but Taveuni is a wealthy place. We dressed in swimming suits and found a "mini bus" to drive us all. A mini bus is like basically a handicap van back home...little bigger then a normal van. It fit all 14 of us in. Don't ask me how cause I don't have a clue but I have a video of it. Our drivers name was Seio and he was a cool chap. PLayed loud music and had no idea what he was getting himself into with all of us. We pulled up to a grassy area and hiked for about 10 min. Got to what looked like Rapids and kyle told us we were sliding down them. I was like oh man this doesn't look safe!!! But the rocks are smooth and the rapids throw you down them!!! It's what they call a rock slide. So you have to cross the rapids first and then you climb up river more then you get in. The current is super strong crossing and you don't want to get thrown down the river cause some areas weren't safe!! But Katie a girl in our group was crossing and Seio wasn't ready to help her yet and she fell down the rapids. The current just swooped her up in it. We were all laughing till we looked at Kyle who was like "oh shit shit shit" (excuse the language) and she flew by Josh who was futher down and Josh tried to grab her but she was to slippery. We were worried she would hit her head on the raging rock rapids but she grabbed on a rock and Seio ran down to save her. The Fijians are fast and have Fijian feet that are rough and can run over rocks and water without hurting themselves. It's kinda like dog pads cause they never wear shoes. Shoes are rare here! Which I love! So anyways he rescued Katie and she was alright. What a champ walked over to us smiling and we were all so worried about her. So once we all crossed the raging rapids safe we went down the rocks that are meant to be slid down on. This was super fun and scary all at once. I magaged 0 bruises! GO ME!
So after the rock slid we went to our huts. Little Fijian huts on the coast is where we Stayed. I think called tavu tavu in a place called Matai. It was nice and we had the rest of the afternoon to relax, shower, and nap. For dinner we went to a pizza place and it was amazin!
The next day woke up early and made breakfast. We headed off to Bouma National Park for waterfalls, fun pictures, and a hike up a mountain. It was amazing and beautiful, adventoruous, exhilerating, all in one. Before we went snorkeling which I must admit was the most AMAZING snorkeling I have seen my entire life. Beautiful reef and fish. I loved it and soaked it all in. The water was a bit rough so I took a break and collected tons of shells on the beach. I played it safe and thought my mom would be proud of me for not drowning myself! We had lunch and I met a girl from the Peace Corp. She had started a school down in taveuni and I was envious of her living the dream. She also lived right next to a church...how perfect!
That night we had kava and lovo for dinner (meal cooked in ground) It was delicious. We sat around and talked and I was almost embarressed to go to bed at 8:30 fighting sleep! IT was nice company and I was loving my time here. We enjoyed Zion and Eden and I realized how much I adore kids and want some of my own but also was reminded how much of a handful children were and that I would enjoy my life and if God wants me to have my own children and husband someday he will provide. Seeing how Kyle talks about his wife and Katie&Timote together made me realize how amazing God is and how he brings people together for a reason. I really love how amazing God is to us! It's so great.
In the morning we woke up and headed to the International dateline. This was super cool. I was in 2 days at the same time!!! MY Right side was Friday and my left side of my body in Saturday. It was surreal... as everything here is. Took pictures of it too! We then went to an old church where the first Fijian missionaries had set up a cathedral. I think it was Catholic because of the holy water but they didn't have signs. Kyle told us that the first missionaries were killed and eaten because Fiji had Cannibalism. It was weird to think about. Poor guys just trying to share God's love. Fiji has a super knarly dark past of cannibalism and chiefs but, Thank the good lord he has been found in Fiji.
One thing I wanted to mention. something I love about being here. (There are lots but this is one cool thing) That many Fijians here have shirts with verses on them that they are allowed to wear in school. I remember in high school we weren't allowed to wear stuff like that. For the most part there are many strong Christians here but it's a different kind of faith. I am not sure how to explain it. It's like they are MUCH closer spiritually to God then any American I know. They really feel the lord's presence. But they also feel the devil here too. It's because like in the States we are attacked by the devil by materialism, money, jobs, TV, etc. and in Fiji they don't have any of that. So they devil kind of reaches them in different more moving real ways. I think of it like in Fiji they are closer to the equator then in the US and in a spiritual way they really feel both God and the devils presence. It's super hard to explain and I don't know how to get my point across but if you saw what I see here you would know exactly what I am trying to say. It's a really good thing they know God because our Lord is so good and with him the devil can't reach us if you have accepted God into your life. I continue to pray that Fiji continues to feel the lord's presence.
SO anyways after the cathedral we boarded the boat once again. I was so sad to leave but, I hope to go back some day soon. I loved that place.
The ride back was much smoother on the Sullivan in case you were wondering :)
So now I am back in Suva and I have so much to do but I can't think right now. My mind is a million other places then my math homework which makes me realize how much I still hate math. I feel really disconnected from my home life of reality but I know soon I will be wishing I was here again. Fiji is like food for the soul, mind, and body. It's seriously healing. If I ever get sick with Cancer and treatment isn't working I want to die here. It's SO peaceful. Your soul feels free and alive. It's like Fiji is healing medicine. You don't think about problems in your head or in the world it's just you exist in God's paradise. I can't even begin to think what heaven will be like! I exist here and all I have to worry about is myself and living. I wish my parents could come here. I think they would love it. Someday I will pay for their plane tickets. Although my dad would hate the heat. I would live here if it wasn't so far away. Maybe though I will have to see where God takes me. I really love life and I love God I love myself and I know what I want and where I am going. It's like looking into a crystal ball and not caring what the future holds. I feel like for the first time I trust God COMPLETELY and fully and I love it. I don't have to or need to worry about who what when where or how. I will just live and love and Fiji brings that out in me. I am changing so much and God is using Fiji to mold me into a better person for myself and for others.
It's food for the soul and I am loving every minute of it.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
And then I see this quote right after my last post...
May today there be peace within . May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be . May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith . May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you . May you be content knowing you are a child of God . Let His presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us."
Life
If you want to know the plan for your life...then you don't want life.
I read that in Conversations with God and I keep trying to remind myself this. It doesn't make sense to me why when I just start to get everything figured out things get complicated all over again...
Tonight we are going to our annual "hot dog" stand for dinner. It's cheap and delicious but, my body suffers the next day.
Tomorrow I think we are going to go to the waterfalls outside of Suva and Saturday heading to the beach. Sunday is Easter and Monday I think I will just relax. Tuesday I will be heading on my Spring Break trip because we don't have school this upcoming week. It will be really nice to get away and enjoy the simple side of Fiji. Suva is so fast paced and I need a little break from the city!
I sometimes get frustrated with myself. Well a lot. Lately I have had all these thoughts and then I think way too much. I am about to go for my first run in a long time. When I first got here I ran a ton and then after about two weeks I was tired of waking up at 5am to run in the slightly less cool weather. The weather here although nice is still overcast. I am ready for some sun.
I talked to my mom today and told her to sign me up for the Twin cities marathon. I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I want to do it though and I am committing myself to train. I already thought of what I want to wear during the race. So creepy I know. but I wanna wear some shirt with "Every step for GOD" or something like that on it. I think I will have to iron it on.
I think to much, I am really complicated, I learn stuff everyday, I grow, I change but, I know that no matter how much I want to know my future and what it holds I need to let it fall into place. I would like to think I have grown up a lot but, I still know I have so much to learn. I have been through a lot more then most people my age but, It's all for good reason and it's helped shape who I am.
They saw humans will try to avoid pain and do things that are pleasurable. I think sometimes pain is inevitable and as much as we try to fight it at sometimes in our life we will experience vast amounts of it..some more then others. Some much earlier then others. I hate thinking of hurting, being sad, mad, frustrated.
Things seem brighter in Fiji. Life is so laid back. I love it. I love the people. I wish I had money to help the homeless people here and for myself to live here. I wish I could bring everyone to Fiji to experience the culture. Cause I am loving every little piece of it.
There are times when I miss home. You really can't explain the feeling of studying abroad unless you have done it. It makes you appreciate so much more and it's a very eye opening thing. I am super Independent and I love that I am. It's been 2 months today and I have about 2 1/2 months left to go. Sometimes I think about it and I am like only 2 months till I get home. BUT I am starting to change this way of thinking like I have 2 more months here to enjoy life and live it out to the fullest. I don't know the next time I will be in Fiji and if it's not for awhile my heart will always be here no matter how far away I am.
I read that in Conversations with God and I keep trying to remind myself this. It doesn't make sense to me why when I just start to get everything figured out things get complicated all over again...
Tonight we are going to our annual "hot dog" stand for dinner. It's cheap and delicious but, my body suffers the next day.
Tomorrow I think we are going to go to the waterfalls outside of Suva and Saturday heading to the beach. Sunday is Easter and Monday I think I will just relax. Tuesday I will be heading on my Spring Break trip because we don't have school this upcoming week. It will be really nice to get away and enjoy the simple side of Fiji. Suva is so fast paced and I need a little break from the city!
I sometimes get frustrated with myself. Well a lot. Lately I have had all these thoughts and then I think way too much. I am about to go for my first run in a long time. When I first got here I ran a ton and then after about two weeks I was tired of waking up at 5am to run in the slightly less cool weather. The weather here although nice is still overcast. I am ready for some sun.
I talked to my mom today and told her to sign me up for the Twin cities marathon. I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I want to do it though and I am committing myself to train. I already thought of what I want to wear during the race. So creepy I know. but I wanna wear some shirt with "Every step for GOD" or something like that on it. I think I will have to iron it on.
I think to much, I am really complicated, I learn stuff everyday, I grow, I change but, I know that no matter how much I want to know my future and what it holds I need to let it fall into place. I would like to think I have grown up a lot but, I still know I have so much to learn. I have been through a lot more then most people my age but, It's all for good reason and it's helped shape who I am.
They saw humans will try to avoid pain and do things that are pleasurable. I think sometimes pain is inevitable and as much as we try to fight it at sometimes in our life we will experience vast amounts of it..some more then others. Some much earlier then others. I hate thinking of hurting, being sad, mad, frustrated.
Things seem brighter in Fiji. Life is so laid back. I love it. I love the people. I wish I had money to help the homeless people here and for myself to live here. I wish I could bring everyone to Fiji to experience the culture. Cause I am loving every little piece of it.
There are times when I miss home. You really can't explain the feeling of studying abroad unless you have done it. It makes you appreciate so much more and it's a very eye opening thing. I am super Independent and I love that I am. It's been 2 months today and I have about 2 1/2 months left to go. Sometimes I think about it and I am like only 2 months till I get home. BUT I am starting to change this way of thinking like I have 2 more months here to enjoy life and live it out to the fullest. I don't know the next time I will be in Fiji and if it's not for awhile my heart will always be here no matter how far away I am.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Being inspired.
I think sometimes God works through other people in our lives...big time.
I was reading my friend Alyssa's blog and it was super inspiring. I just realize (which I do from time to time) that I need to put God in the center of my life. NOT just a part of it. Even in Fiji. I want him to be the core. I want to be on fire for him and talk, think, breathe God...considering he is the one reason I am alive and breathing. So here I am. Basically announcing to myself that I am going to keep him the center, core, numero uno of my life. I have seen God do amazing things in my life and in Fiji and I just really want to live for him. Not just live because what kind of life would that be?
So some of my goals (because Alyssa inspired me so much) these are not in order of importance.
1. Start taking my marathon training seriously (I am running twin cities in October)
2. Start journaling regularly.
3.Live my life for God. ALL THE TIME and WITH EVERYTHING.
4.When I run realize and be thankful that the only reason I am where I am is because of God as well as use this as a reflection time to God.
5. Love everyone.
I just listened to Christian music that I listened to back home and it made me think of who I want to be and reminded me of something much greater, bigger, and unfathomably better then myself...God.
I was reading my friend Alyssa's blog and it was super inspiring. I just realize (which I do from time to time) that I need to put God in the center of my life. NOT just a part of it. Even in Fiji. I want him to be the core. I want to be on fire for him and talk, think, breathe God...considering he is the one reason I am alive and breathing. So here I am. Basically announcing to myself that I am going to keep him the center, core, numero uno of my life. I have seen God do amazing things in my life and in Fiji and I just really want to live for him. Not just live because what kind of life would that be?
So some of my goals (because Alyssa inspired me so much) these are not in order of importance.
1. Start taking my marathon training seriously (I am running twin cities in October)
2. Start journaling regularly.
3.Live my life for God. ALL THE TIME and WITH EVERYTHING.
4.When I run realize and be thankful that the only reason I am where I am is because of God as well as use this as a reflection time to God.
5. Love everyone.
I just listened to Christian music that I listened to back home and it made me think of who I want to be and reminded me of something much greater, bigger, and unfathomably better then myself...God.
Monday, April 6, 2009
The children
Since I have been here I have been volunteering a bit in the kindergarten on campus and have learned some interesting things I thought I could blog about. The kindergarten consists of about fifty children and about two certified teachers. I am not sure if the children really learn much because they run around everywhere like crazy children! I learned back in the United States that children learn by interacting and by play. I think here they really emphasize that too. I felt for the teachers who looked a little stressed but, again the way of life here is so relaxed and calm. They teachers kept a VERY calm collected composure and the children respond to that. I also learned that the first born child can be taken by the husbands parents and they can raise them. This was really interesting to me because I wouldn't want my child to be raised without me but, it's just the culture here and it's very different!
I have been thinking. I can't remember if I talked about what I miss back home. I don't miss anything materialistic at all. I miss milk. I miss people. Country music. I also miss watching American sports on TV. I would like to add that today is opening day for THE CUBBIES!! I realize how much I wish home to see them play. Although I miss these things I have to admit that it's nothing compared to living here in Fiji. Fiji has been the best experience I could have ever asked for. It has been life changing and it's just about half begun. I am striving to be the best person that I can be for me and for God. I am trying to work on being patience (cause boy do you need it here) haha.
This next week we have school off and we are heading to the Northern Island of Fiji. Called Taveuni. I think Bryan and I are going to Savu Savu first and then meeting up with our group in Taveuni on Thursday. I am really excited to get out of the city and be on the beach again.
I have been thinking. I can't remember if I talked about what I miss back home. I don't miss anything materialistic at all. I miss milk. I miss people. Country music. I also miss watching American sports on TV. I would like to add that today is opening day for THE CUBBIES!! I realize how much I wish home to see them play. Although I miss these things I have to admit that it's nothing compared to living here in Fiji. Fiji has been the best experience I could have ever asked for. It has been life changing and it's just about half begun. I am striving to be the best person that I can be for me and for God. I am trying to work on being patience (cause boy do you need it here) haha.
This next week we have school off and we are heading to the Northern Island of Fiji. Called Taveuni. I think Bryan and I are going to Savu Savu first and then meeting up with our group in Taveuni on Thursday. I am really excited to get out of the city and be on the beach again.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Lift up your eyes and don't stand still!
So I have been thinking is it really possible for someone to change their view of the world completely in 8 weeks? I think so.
The weather here has changed a bit. It's now Fiji winter. If you can even call it that! It is about 75 today and breezy. Nice change from the 100 degree sweat- every- ounce -of -water -out -of -your body... heat. It still doesn't even feel like I am in school. Everything is so laid back until the tests and then your expected to regurgitate every piece of information the professors have given. Although I know I will do fine motivation is low since our grades don't transfer back home and all we need is C's to get the credit. I guess I am here for more of the cultural experience which of course I am getting.
I have become quite the listener of David Barnes. His music is pretty amazing so if you get the chance have a listen. Life in Fiji continues to be challenging and such a growing experience. Everyday I wake up and I am the minority. I asked for this. I wanted it. But, It doesn't change the fact that it sometimes is disheartening. Last night our taxi driver tried telling me that the ride from downtown to the dorms was $6.50. Every other ride was about $2.00 I proceeded to tell him that was ridiculous and that he can't do that. He tried not letting me get out of the taxi but, I jumped out. I was mad at first and then I couldn't help but laugh. I only gave him $4.00 which still is much more then it should have been. The point of this story is that everyday (because of my skin color) I am put to the test. I am stared at because I look so different then everyone here.
The last two weekends we have stayed in Suva. Suva is the city we are living in. It is definitely a city. Suva is the capital of Fiji! Although I love the island traveling Suva has become somewhat of a home to me. It even has a McDonalds,Pizza hut, and KFC! All so healthy... Yesterday I was in town with a friend of mine I met named Mike. He showed me a busy city street. I felt at home because for the first time I didn't get harassed. Mike and I decided two days a week or so, we want to pick a spot in the city and just hang out. There is a beautiful park in the middle of the city. I have to try to convince him to bring his guitar! It makes me feel like a local...almost :)
Our Spring Break is coming up in a week! We are going to the other main island of Fiji called Taveuni. I am so excited it's supposed to be beautiful. And of course I will be ready to get nice and tan again as well as get out of the city. I am not much of a city girl at all!
I have also made a commitment to myself that I am going to read the bible here day and night. I know I won't be able to every time but, I want to continue to grow closer to God and get to know him as best as I can. Being in Fiji shouldn't stop me from continuing the walk with the big man upstairs.
On a last note. The mange dogs here have gotten out of control. The dogs here which I call "Fiji dogs" are crazy. They are like a pack of wolves and roam the streets looking for trouble. They mostly leave us humans alone but, still when I turn a corner and literally twenty dogs are in a pack I can't help but want to run as fast as I can in the other direction! They are mixed muts and some have chunks of face missing from dog fights. Sometimes I feel sorry for them but, they smell like a rotting carpus. They remind me of the dogs in Mexico.
That's all for now. I am finding this blog is much easier then my two paper journals but, in twenty years I won't be able to look back on this. Just another thing to add to the list of things to do to keep up my other journals.
The weather here has changed a bit. It's now Fiji winter. If you can even call it that! It is about 75 today and breezy. Nice change from the 100 degree sweat- every- ounce -of -water -out -of -your body... heat. It still doesn't even feel like I am in school. Everything is so laid back until the tests and then your expected to regurgitate every piece of information the professors have given. Although I know I will do fine motivation is low since our grades don't transfer back home and all we need is C's to get the credit. I guess I am here for more of the cultural experience which of course I am getting.
I have become quite the listener of David Barnes. His music is pretty amazing so if you get the chance have a listen. Life in Fiji continues to be challenging and such a growing experience. Everyday I wake up and I am the minority. I asked for this. I wanted it. But, It doesn't change the fact that it sometimes is disheartening. Last night our taxi driver tried telling me that the ride from downtown to the dorms was $6.50. Every other ride was about $2.00 I proceeded to tell him that was ridiculous and that he can't do that. He tried not letting me get out of the taxi but, I jumped out. I was mad at first and then I couldn't help but laugh. I only gave him $4.00 which still is much more then it should have been. The point of this story is that everyday (because of my skin color) I am put to the test. I am stared at because I look so different then everyone here.
The last two weekends we have stayed in Suva. Suva is the city we are living in. It is definitely a city. Suva is the capital of Fiji! Although I love the island traveling Suva has become somewhat of a home to me. It even has a McDonalds,Pizza hut, and KFC! All so healthy... Yesterday I was in town with a friend of mine I met named Mike. He showed me a busy city street. I felt at home because for the first time I didn't get harassed. Mike and I decided two days a week or so, we want to pick a spot in the city and just hang out. There is a beautiful park in the middle of the city. I have to try to convince him to bring his guitar! It makes me feel like a local...almost :)
Our Spring Break is coming up in a week! We are going to the other main island of Fiji called Taveuni. I am so excited it's supposed to be beautiful. And of course I will be ready to get nice and tan again as well as get out of the city. I am not much of a city girl at all!
I have also made a commitment to myself that I am going to read the bible here day and night. I know I won't be able to every time but, I want to continue to grow closer to God and get to know him as best as I can. Being in Fiji shouldn't stop me from continuing the walk with the big man upstairs.
On a last note. The mange dogs here have gotten out of control. The dogs here which I call "Fiji dogs" are crazy. They are like a pack of wolves and roam the streets looking for trouble. They mostly leave us humans alone but, still when I turn a corner and literally twenty dogs are in a pack I can't help but want to run as fast as I can in the other direction! They are mixed muts and some have chunks of face missing from dog fights. Sometimes I feel sorry for them but, they smell like a rotting carpus. They remind me of the dogs in Mexico.
That's all for now. I am finding this blog is much easier then my two paper journals but, in twenty years I won't be able to look back on this. Just another thing to add to the list of things to do to keep up my other journals.
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